| | ...Seems like I am constantly being tested. I hate letting my adrenaline drip all day which causes me to feel extremely edgy. I hate being so unsure about things-like what college I want to go (vocational or 4-year degree) and what I really want to do with my ife & whether it will be something I enjoy or merely put up with. I hate dealing with the pressure of having another child. I don't see myself having one anytime soon. Even though I am in a committed monogamous relationship I do feel some melancholy and unsureness with the possibility of marriage. I just wish I had all the answers and could see my future in a crystal ball sometimes...Most of all I hate feeling guilty of having to work so much & sacrifice seeing my son grow from a toddler into a boy. I feel as though I am missing out & feel as if I am a part-time mother who never has time to take her son to the zoo or have a movie night. Our times together are so limited all I want to do is kiss him and just enjoy his company. I never would've thought being an adult would be so.....
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| | Posted 10/29/2009 7:21 PM - 6 Views
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